Fireflies and your light

Have you ever passed a field swarming with lightning bugs? Flickering the brightest yellow, shining in the cool, dark night sky. Off and on, they switch their lighting, with no care in the world, as they fly from place to place.

As a child we would stay out late trying to catch them to put in a jar. We would see one and just that fast, it was gone. The month of June was so exciting because you knew they were coming, those amazing, flying creatures that light up the night, while giving you the feeling of, summer is finally here!

Long ago, while we were driving home, I looked out my window and saw a field so full of fireflies. There were millions of them as far as the eye could see. This burst of excitement shot through me, I couldn’t stop looking at them, they were there just for me, because God knew I loved them so much. They are simple, yet amazing, small, yet mighty, here suddenly, then gone before we know it. They are one of my favorite parts about summer. They bring joy, peace, and a feeling of relaxation.

To see one fly here and there is a great thrill, even though seeing hundreds feels much better. Look at how one lightning bug brings so much joy. It’s beautiful and you know there are more where that came from, but when you see them together it brings so much more light, so much more peace, and a ton more joy.

Look at all of us humans. We are all unique, we are all beautiful and we can shine by showing love. With our words and our actions we are like light in a world filled with darkness. We can bring joy and peace to those around us with our kindness. We can shine our light to those who are hurting. We can bring peace and comfort just by listening and being there for people who are in need of wanting someone to help them through hard times. We could do so much more by shining together. This world has began to divide us though. We argue, instead of agree to disagree. We get angry and block each other out. We lose our light when we let darkness start to consume us with petty things. We need to become like the fireflies, find each other, come together and become a strong group of; love, peace, and hope. We need to shine as family, not be devided as one here and one there. We should have each others back by speaking up for the one who is being mistreated. We need to stop replacing kindness with meanness because we disagree in politics, religion, music, the metoo, and who our president is. It’s time to look past our differences and see, we are all human, no matter the color of our skin, our upbringing, if we are left or right, Democrat or Republican, or atheist. Let’s not look at what we can find to shame someone, let’s not point out failure on one another, but rather, point out the good. We must learn to encourage, to praise, to love through the differences. We need to shine brightly, we need to unite, we need to look at this world and say, we will not lose hope, we will stand strong because together, we are unstoppable! The more love shown, the less heartbreak. The more caring, the less depressed. So shine! ‘Cause when we shine great in number verses as one, we are dynamic!


Your Faith Is All God Needs To Fix Your Problems.

Do you ever feel hopeless? If you answer no, take a step back and look at your past. Search deep inside of you, every thought, every moment that things were tough, and everytime you cried, why God, why?

Faith is not something that just comes naturally. Faith comes by prayer, faithfulness to Jesus, loyalty, and by a deep prayer life. Let’s take a look at the people in the bible, we will start with Noah’s ark. God instructed Noah to build a big boat because He was going to destroy the world’s wickedness. Can you imagine how hard that was for him? The laughter from the people, the feeling of being thought of as a crazy man. We have David, with a sling shot and stones to kill a beastly man, a giant. Yet with some prayer and faith in His God, he conquered the enemy, with God hy his side the whole way. What about the three men in the more hot than normal furnace, but they would not yield to the false God. Their God was right there in the fire with them, protecting every hair on their head to the tips of their feet. Here is Moses, leading God’s children away from Egypt, parting the sea and walking through it as God closed the sea in on their enemies.

All God wants is a little bit of faith from us, for us to trust Him with our lives and His planned outcome for it. All these men in the word of God, bad may have happened, but they kept pressing on, they didn’t just give up the moment they didn’t see God’s footprints beside them. Some did waver in their faith at times, but that just shows me that even though we may get weak in our faith, even start to question God. He doesn’t give up on us. He is just standing there, arms wide open, to hold us tight and embrace our weariness.

I love the Story of Samson and Delilah. Samson lost his way for a while, he gave into temptation, and he lost the path he was to follow, but in the end he got his faith back and believed God to give him his strength back one last time, and with the help of the Lord, he completed what needed to be done by crumbling the walls down on the wickedness.

No matter how far we stray or how long it takes us to rise back from our failures, He is the ever forgiving father. Being washed in Jesus’ blood is the most amazing miracle that could ever have been given to us. He is there to help us with each day, though there are many times it is hard to believe. It’s hard to believe God is there in the times like Job, when you are losing everything, when people are telling you to just curse God because He has forsaken you. Our faith is to withhold our cursing, our faith is to still have hope, to believe something good will come from the pain we endured. Through our pain we show faith when we, just like David, dance before the Lord with all our might, though there must be those looking and laughing. God doesn’t laugh at our worship or our dance, God delights is it. We sing in times of despair, we worship and thank Him for we believe He has a plan that is coming from all our trials. We grow closer to Him when we keep belieing, our hearts are filled with peace when we give it all to Him and don’t take our misery back. We just have to trust in Him and glorify Him even when our hearts feel down. Tust that with God, when we give him our small problems, He gives us back a bigger blessing. Let Him rescue you by trutsing that He can and will pull His children out of anything and He will always create something beautiful!

“Baby” Not an accident, not an oops, not a mistake, but a grand surprise.

For many years I have told the story of how my first, second, and third child came to be. I have always told it as, my first was planned, but then unplanned and became an oops. My second child was planned, but hid from the pregnancy test. My third child was a full blown oops with a paragard.

Thinking this over with my three babies, all growing up way too fast, I now have come to see that I have been telling about my little miracles all wrong. No child is an oops, no child is a mistake, and no child is an accident. They are miracles. The little tiny hands and feet that grow so rapidly, the itty bitty nose, those little yawns that you can see through mans wisdom of ultra sound, and the heart, beating like a race horse that is pushing so hard because it is very near to the finish line.

None of that is by mistake, even if it was unplanned. It is a surprise! A gift from God to fill your days with; smiles, small mouths with loud, contagious laughs. Messy faces, that are trying very hard to learn how to hold the baby spoon, but give up and start again to just grab with their fingers. First steps that you thought never would come, and a huge smile to go along with it because that one year old is cracking his own self up as he stumbled down onto the floor again, with you watching the whole time and laughing at the adorable wobbles.

Life is full of surprises. Some are good, some are bad, some still waiting to be determined. The greatest surprise of all is a beautiful soul sent by God, no matter how they got there, to help you through all your sorrows, and celebrate all your happiness, and to watch and learn from you as you help them develop and grow.

So, my sweet babies, that some times make me want to pull out my hair, (its true) are all gifts. They were my amazing surprises that God saw fit to give me. Without my surprises my life would most likely have went down the wrong road. I would not be where I am today, right where God wants me, and there would be an emptiness that i would never quite understand or be able to fill. Look at your grand suprise, kiss them, hug them, hold them tight, cause they most likely made you the person you are today.


Philippians 4:4

Rejoice in the Lord alway: and again I say, Rejoice.”

Sing it, dance it, let the praise ring! Jesus christ, our glorious father, who hell could not beat has won the victory. We need not be in despair, we need not feel hopeless, and we need not surrender to guilt. It’s by God’s grace that we are overcomers, that we have new life in Him, that we can come straight to Him with our worries, fears, frustrations, and grief. God’s word tells us, “by His stripes we are healed.”

Isaiah 53:5

But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed.

Healing does not only come to the physical body in sickness, but is healing of the heart, mind, emotions, and needs as well. It is easy to forget that He is God, that through the blood of His son, the only true living God, that He can and will care for every part of us. We are His children, no loving father turns His back on His child. God’s word also tells us we have the ability to come to Him, to be a part of Him, it tells us how much He loves us, if only we take on His holy name, Jesus Christ, through the spiritual death, by baptizm, and go on in life, living with and like His spirit dwells inside of us.

Acts 2:38

Then Peter said unto them, Repent, and be baptized every one of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the remission of sins, and ye shall receive the gift of the Holy Ghost.

Jesus longs for our happiness, He longs to give us the desires of our hearts, if only we ask and ask not amiss.

James 4:2-3

2 Ye lust, and have not: ye kill, and desire to have, and cannot obtain: ye fight and war, yet ye have not, because ye ask not.

3 Ye ask, and receive not, because ye ask amiss, that ye may consume it upon your lusts.

A heart seeking truly after God and His righteousness seeks; honesty, for God’s will, and for their desires to glorify our Lord. Be not discouraged

Galatians 6:9 – And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not.

Isaiah 41:10 – Fear thou not; for I [am] with thee: be not dismayed; for I [am] thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.

Romans 15:13 – Now the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, that ye may abound in hope, through the power of the Holy Ghost.

Scripture upon scripture He tells us He is with us, He tells us not to fear. God’s got this, He has you and all your troubles. So rejoice! Praise Him in the dance, praise Him in the trial, praise Him in the struggle, and praise Him for the request yet to be answered. It’s a grain the size of a mustard seed that can move a mountain, so speak to the mountain with your praise, let God lift all your heaviness off of you, and rejoice that you don’t have to do any of this alone, cause God is the almighty.

Get ready for your breakthrough!

Listen to the breeze, Hear it calling to you? It whispers in a heavenly, small voice, I love you, I cherish you, you are mine.

If you wait, if you hold on to what little bit of faith you have left, you will feel the peace flow over you, you will see how valued you are, you will no longer wonder, but you will know, you are loved.

God created us with purpose, He created us for pleasure. God has never just sat with nothing to do upon His thrown thinking, “I will just make this soul to go suffer on earth, ’cause I have nothing better to do.” Every test, every heartbreak, every breath ’till our last has a reason, a purpose, and a work I progress. No one was created to feel hopeless, or cast aside. God made you Unique, each one of you. He tries daily to talk with us, He uses His creation to show us His love, His glory, and His never ending work in us. Sometimes we just need to stop and listen. Stop going, stop thinking, and stop trying to figure out Gods plan. We can’t tell God how long a trial is to last, or when we are ready to be tested. Be careful when you think you are strong enough to withstand the enemy, that could be the moment you are not ready. Seek God in prayer and ask Him to strengthen you, to guide you, and to walk with you every step of the way being your leader. God is not standing there waiting for you to fail, but rather waiting on you to come to Him with a broken heart, broken spiritual peaces, and your hands handing over to Him all the shattered destruction that you make your soul hold onto. We were never meant to hold onto pain by ourselves and we were never meant to climb every mountain alone. We were meant to seek after Him, to hold His hand, to talk to Him, to ask His help, and to work on building our faith back up when we start losing it. Never give up! When the time comes that you feel you can’t go on, when you start collapsing in your faith and you are tired, distraught, and feel like you just can’t hold on, hold a little tighter and prepare for your deliverance ’cause your breakthrough is just a hand above water away.

Karma doesn’t turn the other cheek.

You thought that you had me, you thought you won the game.

You thought that you could shame me, and you would hold no blame.

You tried to use your power and scare me till the end, but you see, I am a fighter and my heart was made to mend.

You tried to keep me quiet and you tried to shut me down, but my story’s far from over, all I did was fix my crown.

I got to watch you nervous and I got to see you fail, I saw you lose the battle and put yourself through hell.

I got to see the truth be told and hear them say you lied, you may be walking free right now, but you’re burning up inside.

Your pain is far from over and you’re always going to run, karma doesn’t come around just to have some fun.

You think that you’re untouchable, that hell has reached its peak, but I am here to tell you, karma doesn’t turn the other cheek.

You are enough

There are times that I feel like writing encouraging things, times I want to write something uplifting, to bring peace to the brokenhearted. Today, I am the broken. I am small, I feel weak, and almost feel as though I have stepped far back from how far I have come. The whole week has been torture, my mind has been spinning out of control, and I feel like rather than standing tall, I have been sinking. My faith has been put to the test, sleep haunts me, my dreams scare me. Wickedness has seeped in. I run from the enemy, I hide behind closed doors in my dreams, but he finds me. I have almost given up, why fight it anymore? I have always been too weak. Always too scared to speak my mind, always afraid of offending someone, and let myself be hurt and abused rather than making things right. Today I feel a rise. It was lost for a while and I felt like I lost myself to failure. Tomorrow will be another day, another trial, another moment of feeling lost, confused, hurt, and burdened. The law and time are against me, but God is for me. I lost my faith for a while, but I feel it slowly returning. Just because one little thing that feels huge has happened doesn’t mean its over, it means I can find yet another miracle, another way to praise God. I have felt neglected by God, and ashamed for feeling it. I feel worthless for not trusting Him, and fearing all week, but today, I believe He speaks to tell me, you are enough. Your failures are not held against you like marks on a slate, you just slipped, but you are climbing back up, and I’m always here to catch you if only you call my name.