“Baby” Not an accident, not an oops, not a mistake, but a grand surprise.

For many years I have told the story of how my first, second, and third child came to be. I have always told it as, my first was planned, but then unplanned and became an oops. My second child was planned, but hid from the pregnancy test. My third child was a full blown oops with a paragard.

Thinking this over with my three babies, all growing up way too fast, I now have come to see that I have been telling about my little miracles all wrong. No child is an oops, no child is a mistake, and no child is an accident. They are miracles. The little tiny hands and feet that grow so rapidly, the itty bitty nose, those little yawns that you can see through mans wisdom of ultra sound, and the heart, beating like a race horse that is pushing so hard because it is very near to the finish line.

None of that is by mistake, even if it was unplanned. It is a surprise! A gift from God to fill your days with; smiles, small mouths with loud, contagious laughs. Messy faces, that are trying very hard to learn how to hold the baby spoon, but give up and start again to just grab with their fingers. First steps that you thought never would come, and a huge smile to go along with it because that one year old is cracking his own self up as he stumbled down onto the floor again, with you watching the whole time and laughing at the adorable wobbles.

Life is full of surprises. Some are good, some are bad, some still waiting to be determined. The greatest surprise of all is a beautiful soul sent by God, no matter how they got there, to help you through all your sorrows, and celebrate all your happiness, and to watch and learn from you as you help them develop and grow.

So, my sweet babies, that some times make me want to pull out my hair, (its true) are all gifts. They were my amazing surprises that God saw fit to give me. Without my surprises my life would most likely have went down the wrong road. I would not be where I am today, right where God wants me, and there would be an emptiness that i would never quite understand or be able to fill. Look at your grand suprise, kiss them, hug them, hold them tight, cause they most likely made you the person you are today.

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Author: heidifowler

I'm a 34 year old with 3 wonderful kids, an amazing husband that ended up rescuing me from who i thought was trying to rescue me. i am the woman that makes mistakes but learns from them. i am not who i was a little over a year ago. last year i was easily manipulated, being made to feel guilty, and struck down by people i trusted. this year i have learned about myself and still learning...how to be strong. how to protect myself and never be a victim again.

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