This weekend has been rough. A couple of weeks ago I was feeling a joy in even the things of my past. Some horrible memories would be triggered and a peace would come over me. Then last week I started having some step backs in my feelings. Living in the past is dangerous. I was struggling with the thoughts of things been done to me, struggling with the places I was in, where I had faced trauma in my past. Then to top it off I got a message from someone that is somewhat involved in my past. It sent me into a mixed set of emotions. It may have made for a little bit of a rough night, but then it made me see it like this. I am still winning. I am still on top. I still have a loving God that defends me, protects me, and cherishes me. He may let me go through some rough times, but through Jesus Christ’s blood, I am redeemed, completed, loved, and He has created me to be a warrior. I may have had a rough patch in my past, I may not have stood tall when I needed to and may have got up slowly, but I got up and that is all that matters. No matter what we go through, God’s always got this. No matter how we slip, no matter how many times we almost give up, no matter how many heartbreaks, or lack of faith at moments, God is and will always be there. So, I reminded myself, this can not hurt you. your trauma, mistakes, regrets, lack of standing up for yourself and making certain things stop do not define who you are. I am made stronger and better by focussing on my future and learning from past failures and regrets. I am strong and blessed that God trusts me with His trials and in the end, I win, as long as I always rely on Jesus. His baptism of my flesh, according to
Repent and be baptized every one of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the remission of sins and you shall receive the gift of the holy ghost.
Covers me. His death on the cross tells me by His stripes I am healed. So that means my body, my heart, and my emotional pain…. All of it
Gods always got this, Gods always got us. Dare to be blessed.