You Don’t Have To Remain Dead Inside.

Sometimes i look around and think, “what is the point to all of this? Why am I here? Why are any of us here?” I was watching the traffic going by on the highway and thought, “just one strike could end a life. Just like that, it’s all over and what does a person have to show for the tine they were here?” It made me feel numb and like there was really nothing worth fighting for. Just moments of getting up and going, just another day to feel nothing, to already feel dead. As i was watching the traffic a thought crossed my mind…call it God, or a higher power, whatever you will. This thought came to me, “you don’t have to feel dead inside.”

Non of us have to feel dead inside. Life is what we make of it. Our time on this earth is not about giving in to the numbness, but about pushing past those times, finding a new hope, a new joy. Focussing on the negative can only bring more sorrows, more pain, and maybe even more regrets to keep constanly playing in your mind’s repeat mode. No one has to feel dead inside, unloved, or worthless cause we all have a purpose and God has a plan, even when we struggle to see it. God can use even the worse circumstances to create something wonderful, that doesn’t mean he has orchestrated them, but we have to be open minded and willing to not dwell in repeat of our numbness and sorrows. Burry the past, celebrate the future, and live in the present as though you have won every challenge you have ever faced. If we turn our focus to God, focus less on the things that are not His blessings, we will become happier, bolder, stronger, and unstoppable. So remember, it’s all up to you, but you DON’T have to feel dead inside.


Author: heidifowler

I'm a 34 year old with 3 wonderful kids, an amazing husband that ended up rescuing me from who i thought was trying to rescue me. i am the woman that makes mistakes but learns from them. i am not who i was a little over a year ago. last year i was easily manipulated, being made to feel guilty, and struck down by people i trusted. this year i have learned about myself and still to be strong. how to protect myself and never be a victim again.

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