Never be manipulated by the world, always put God first.

When I first created my blog page, I did it with the plan of telling my story of how I was sexually assaulted by a friend, a friend who claimed I was his best friend. Infact, I was almost his only friend. I started my page so that I could be the person people could learn from. How to watch for signs, and to not be blind to the signs like I was. I saw things here and there that put up a red flag, but I was always sucked back into J’s twisted, demented world of guilt, manipulation, and grooming. If you are reading this and have no idea what I am talking about you can see my story entitled manipulated and sexually assaulted. For the longer story with a lot more detail and self help links, check out my first 10 blogs, manipulated into an affair. So, back to the topic. Considering I was creating this about sexual assault and being manipulated by a man, I made my account dontbemanipulatedbymen. I tried to change it later considering I was starting to post more things then just the assault, but it wouldn’t let me change it. I found that through all of this, even though I am still angry, hurt, and want to see justice, I was given a blessing. God inspired me to start writing stuff about Him, to spread love, encouragement, and uplifting messages. I dont Have to just let my story sit here and close down writing. I can do more for him by building a faith based blog, inspired through my journey of pain, anger, and healing. I felt bad about the name of the blog though. It felt bad to me, with a name that seems degrading to men, after all, that was not what I was aiming for. I just wanted people to protect themselves from it’s possibility of it happening. As I thought about it, I realised, the blog name is just fine. We are constantly manipulated by man kind about our beliefs, our faith, I own understanding of God and who He really is. So, now I see it as… Dontbemanipumatedbymen.. Is a Godly look at the world. We must never let people control our minds, or try to redirect our thoughts in a negitive way about our Lord. I would love to see comments below of testimonies, people declaring their love for Jesus, and to give words of encouragment to each other through this blog. We must stand firm and strengthen one another and never be manipulated by man (kind)


Author: heidifowler

I'm a 34 year old with 3 wonderful kids, an amazing husband that ended up rescuing me from who i thought was trying to rescue me. i am the woman that makes mistakes but learns from them. i am not who i was a little over a year ago. last year i was easily manipulated, being made to feel guilty, and struck down by people i trusted. this year i have learned about myself and still to be strong. how to protect myself and never be a victim again.

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