Every day I find myself loving the artist, Danny Gokey, a little more. I also love the movie, “The Shack,” a movie that i believe is a huge help in the healing of a heart process, if you open your mind and heart to it. click for the song “rise” . Everyone has a past. Some people have a better one then others, but a past non the less. My personal struggle, recently, was dealing with the memories of J. click for my me too story about J. The song can be viewed different ways for each struggle/trial and helps you to learn to focus on your purpose more then your pain.
The shack is a story about a man whos life takes a turn for the worse after his precious little girl is kidnapped and murdered by an unknown man. He struggles with a lot of hate (very understandable) toward the monster that did this horrible thing to his little girl. A person can put themselves in the movie with their own lives dealing with any struggle, not just death. I put my self and my situation into the movie as a guide toward my own healing. The man goes on a journey with God (yes, the form of a woman, but only because they were making a point that God can manifest in any way to help his children. The man wouldn’t be as susceptible to a father figure because of the lack of love and the distruction from his own dad, but great love he felt from his mom.) His journey is one of healing.
Now, for the song… “Rise”
“something inside you can’t deny
You hear the call of your creator
I made you for more, unlocked the door
I wanna restore your glory.”
Living in the past, if it be from a mistake, or something done to a person wrongfully, it can cause us to lose our glory. It can bring on so much anger and bitterness, it will start to consume us. We have to unlock the door of our hearts and let God restore our glory, to let him redeem us to who we really are.
Breaking the dark, piercing the night
You’re made to shine
An army of hope
Bringing the world
A radiant light
You were made to rise”
We are here to bring that light to the world, but we must fight for it to always shine, even with past hurts, mistakes, or horrible situations. We are made to shine in a darkened world, to pierce the night with God’s glory. If we let our past snuff out our light, that will be one less soul to shine a radiant light into a dark, Godless world. We need to build an army of hope by spreading how, through God grace, we can rise and shine above any situation that was formed to destroy is.
Leave what happened in the grave
You were made to rise
You were made to shine
Take all your past mistakes, all your hurt, shame, times you felt alone, betrayed, and understand, God never left you. He was just waiting for you to fully rely and Him and let Him be God. Shut the door on the past, bury it and walk away shine brighter then ever now that you rose above something that was meant to destroy you. When you stand and shine bright, all the destrunction that was heading toward you, spiritually, crumbles at your feet.)
The journey took the man down a long, tough road of healing. I could see myself in his shoes, only with my lack of wanting to forgive J for his; manipulation, sexual assault, and lack of respect for me. The more triggers I had, the more anger would rise in me. (Yes, triggers are very real, any little thing can set you off that has something to do with the assaulter, causing the bringing back of a memory. I will suddenly have past conversations pop in my head, then it would cause me to detested him again and even more because I would now see how sneaking, manipulating, and disrespectful he was toward me. The movie showed the three strangers, (God) telling the man that they wanted to help heal his heart of the hurt, if only he would let them. Sometimes i would feel myself wanting to stay angry, other times I felt like I had forgiven him. I felt like if the anger wasn’t there then I was excusing J for all the terrible things he had done to me. It was like I felt I was saying what he did wasn’t that bad, if I could just forgive him on a whim. Of course this is not true, it’s just how it felt to me. There was also a scene where Jesus has the man go out on a boat and the water turns black. It starts destroying the boat and creeping up the man and filling the boat with water. The man cries, why are you doing this to me? Jesus answers him saying, i am not doing this, this is in your head. This is what is happening to you. You are letting the this thing consume you. Just focus on me, listen to my voice, don’t look at that, look at me. The man finally focuses on Jesus, the destruction stops and the water becomes clear again. click for scene in boat I know I could see myself there too. I was letting what J did consume me by it constanly being in my thoughts, and it is very destructive. It’s not way to live, to let something ungodly rule you and take you away from all the joy God has waiting for you. Another life lesson brought up in “The Shack.” While God is talking to the man He tries to make him understand, the murderer is too one of God’s children. He tells him He wants to redeem him. God also told the man that forgiving him/redeeming him doesn’t exuse him for what he did, and everyone must pay for their actions. So, I had to bring this in my mind.. My fogivness doesn’t mean he is excused, it just means i have to let the anger go. I have to give it to God and trust that God is in control, to trust Him to know best how to handle him for what he did to me, just like in the movie. I never planned on paying him back anyway, so i feel I had already crossed the bridge long ago in a way. The last point that hit hard with me is when the man is holding his baby girl’s dead body. He and God ( in a man manifestation now) went up the mountain and dug her out from the rocks where she had been hid. The man is taking her back to the shed and there stands the three strangers, representing father, son, and Holy Spirit, they open the door to the shed and there lies the coffin. The man falls to his knees, crying, as Jesus walks over to him, the man begs, while crying and in so much pain, “please, please.” Jesus takes the little girl from him and lays her to rest. click for the scene of the funeral scene I could see this being me with my pain, all my hurt that I have struggled with letting go of. There is a struggle of wanting to hold onto it all while wanting to let it go and no longer feel the anger and pain. I just want Jesus to take it all, to stop holding it myself so I will stop torturing my own self with it. I felt like I now have reached that point. I cry, and i see myself handing it over to Jesus, begging Him to take it so I can stop tossing it back and forth in my head. It does no good to hold onto it. It creates depression, anger, and desire starts to burn for revenge. The man said to God that he didn’t know how to fogive the man. God told him to just say it out loud. God said, it doesn’t happen all at once, and it may take people many times of saying it before it gets any easier, but one day it will. click for forgiveness scene It’s true, I may have to say it daily for a long time, because it hurts like a fresh cut on delicate skin, but that is how healing starts. So, if you struggle with past regrets, hurts, or your mind plays games with you on forgivness, I strongly recommend you try these things. And remember, forgiving doesn’t mean you excuse them, it means you are putting it in Gods hands to handle it so you don’t have to be burdened by it, so you don’t lose your shine while being so consumed with the past. Forgiveness doesn’t excuse their behavior, but forgiveness prevents their behavior from destroying your heart. So, shut the door to yesterday, leave what happened in the grave, and rise and shine. For that is the greatest battle plan you could ever have!