All day I thought about writing my blog, but I just couldn’t come up with anything encouraging to write. I asked God to give me something, but nothing came all day. Of course it’s 10:30 and im gettong ready for bed and I looked down at my phone at my newly cracked screen. A thought came to me how my phone is cracked and looks ugly, but how it still functions to its full capacity.
It made me think about life. It made me think about how as humans we tend to sometimes feel broken. Things happen to us that break our spirit, make us bitter, make us lose faith, and make life feel like it’s just not worth living sometimes. When I dropped my phone on the concrete driveway, picked it back up to see all the cracks all over it, I felt like my heart had been broken, but my phone still worked. it doesn’t cut my fingers,and all the buttons are fine, aside from a little bit of some ugly cracks when the Sun hits it a certain way it’s like nothing ever happened to it. This is how we can be as humans. things happen to us that crack us, that break us, but if we push on and get back up after we’ve been knocked down we can still function. Our creator created us so that we would be able to withstand trials, to be able to press forward and show his glory. Being cracked doesn’t mean you lost a war, it means you have been hit cause to the enemy you are a target. When i send a message from my cracked phone, that send button sends just as it should. When God wants us to send a message through our testimony of what we have rose against, He sends us, broken pieces and all. Without being broken, you have nothing to share with the world. I was broken for way to long. I had my story of my marriage being healed, and the trial and heartache I went through getting there, but I was scared of being judged. I worried that by telling the truth of my lack of standing up for myself would have had people pointing fingers, rather then seeing it as a miracle. One day it hit me. I have an amazing testimony, a great victory through Jesus, but I was hiding it from the world because I was afraid of what people would think of me. I was manipulated and blackmailed into hiding the truth about what God did for me by being scared of how I got there. So I finally told my story, my mess up of being weak in a situation that I should have made stop when I wanted it to, hiding my assault cause i was thinking that i was to blame that it happened. I was broken because i made bad choices putting myself in the situation, but I was not so broken that I couldn’t take a stand and make it stop when I saw it getting way out of control. The situation woke me up to see that things could change, that i could change. It made me see that marriage is worth fighting for, that you never just give up, no matter how broken it is, because things that are broken can still work. I realised through all this that there are so many other people out there that are scared to tell their stories, that feel broken and disgusted with themselves, just like I did. God can use all my brokeness to help heal others, to help them to see how they too can be broken but still be in one piece. What has broken you? There are so many things that can tear a person apart, just stand strong, get back up on your feet and don’t hide the testimony due to the shame of what may have broken you, or made your walk with God waver for a while. God can use anything, if we only let Him. My phone will never be 100 percemt complete again so i now have learned to be more cautious with it. I put it back in its case and hold onto it just a little more carefully. If I would have continued to drop it without a case of protection there is a chance the screen could crack even more, the parts of the screen could possibly fall out and the phone very well could lose its ability to functiontion at all. Broken humans are the same way, once we are cracked it could lead to more problems. If we are broken due to making the wrong choices and not relying on God ( what I started doing that led to my assault) it could break us entirely. Whatever has broken you, rise above it or turn away from it and let God start to restore you to be stronger then you were before and share His miracle that spun out from what started out to maybe harm you spiritually. You never really know how your brokeness could lead to someone’s wholeness and your own healing/repair in the process. Any situation belongs to the Lord God almighty!
You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives.