4 victim of manipulated affair

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A little later kissed me again and at this point i was thinking, get this guy off of me, but stupidely still playing into it! Some guy saw us and said some choice words. We Paid for our stuff and walked out to our cars. I knew i would never hang with him again. He broke his word, and had no care that i was married or how it made me feel. While at our cars he asked if he could have a good bye kiss. I stood there and said i think you’ve had enough! He mumbld something then he charged at me and aggressively pulled me into him kissing me after I had told him no. It knocked the breath out of me a little bit. I couldn’t help laughing at the guy that had seen us. So we joked about it later. We ended up talking about it through messanger, he accused me that i liked him touching me there and said he believes he could easily get me to sleep with him. I told him he was full of it. I had to keep pushing his hand off. My head was still spinning. I felt horrible. I never should have let this happen.. Why did i? I should have slapped him.. Kicked him… Why did i play into it like an idiot? At some point i thought my husband knew we were hanging out so i told him, partly to scare him into backing off. He would just laugh..though one time he typed, “shit.” I thought maybe it would scare him into calming down… But i also look back and see that whenever i would tell him i think he knows or i think he smelled you. He pushed even harder to touch me. I didn’t owe him a secret get together, friends or not.. But he wore me down into letting it happen. I finally knew i had to do something. Between seeing my husband unwinding, him pushing, me starting to be so weak that i played into this whole kissing thing. So that’s when i started “the talk.”

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Author: heidifowler

I'm a 34 year old with 3 wonderful kids, an amazing husband that ended up rescuing me from who i thought was trying to rescue me. i am the woman that makes mistakes but learns from them. i am not who i was a little over a year ago. last year i was easily manipulated, being made to feel guilty, and struck down by people i trusted. this year i have learned about myself and still learning...how to be strong. how to protect myself and never be a victim again.

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