2 Victim of manipulated affair

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Now today i believe it was strong guilt cause of the way he played it off making me feel even more ashamed for abandoning him. One night he made a joke, as he always did. He said i would be dreaming about him that night. I slipped into his world where i never should have and joked back. All this time i ignored his perverted jokes with no problem. But this one i commented like an idiot. I said that would be fine, but i talk in my sleep. I knew i was starting to like him. His charm and smooth talking. He was like a darn hypnotist. It was so late, like 1 am i guess. My brain was becoming like mush. He started questioning me about my feelings. The things i said could not be a lie, trying to be a Christian and all. I remember thinking, if i lie and say i don’t like him I’m to go to hell.. So out came the truth that i sort of liked him, but i was married. So, if i was single i might would date him. Right there it should have stopped. He should have been a gentleman and not kept pushing, but people who are selfish and care only for themselves only push harder when they see a way of getting what they want. So he pushed. The words of a snake, the lies, and deception started. Here i was feeling down in my marriage, feeling unloved, betrayed, hopeless, and beyond fragile. I started trusting him more and more with my secrets. He claimed to be my Procter. He started telling me that he was falling in love with me. Back and forth we went. He would say, “please don’t let me fully fall in love with you.” I would tell him i was afraid someone was going to get hurt through all this. All he could say was its a risk that was worth it amd he woukd enjoy trying to win me. How do you tell someone not to let them fully fall in love with you, yet keep doing everything in your power to make them yours?

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Author: heidifowler

I'm a 34 year old with 3 wonderful kids, an amazing husband that ended up rescuing me from who i thought was trying to rescue me. i am the woman that makes mistakes but learns from them. i am not who i was a little over a year ago. last year i was easily manipulated, being made to feel guilty, and struck down by people i trusted. this year i have learned about myself and still learning...how to be strong. how to protect myself and never be a victim again.

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